It's still a marvel to Jyn and she was privy to everything happening. Every kick and squirm. She grew those kidneys and toes and eyelashes, that little determined mouth and tiny fingers stubbornly clutching her flat tooka. She'll let Cassian take credit for the dimples, at least, those are all his.
Her arm loops around his waist, other hand reaching to adjust Rey's little nightshirt, tugging it down over her belly, stretching to run her finger down their baby's tiny little nose before she draws her hand back, laughing at the way Rey seems to turn to try and chase Jyn's hand.
"Quickly, before we never leave." They could probably stand there all night, being mildly obsessed, but they have laundry to do and data files to send out, all sorts of things that need to be done. They can't just stare at Rey all night, it's creepy, they're creepy.
He's meant it from day one that Rey is the best thing he's ever done, but the fact that she exists at all will never stop amazing him. They made a human. Half of him exists in Rey. It's been months, he's still surprised. He's still impressed with Jyn for doing most of the work.
He likes the warm weight of Jyn's arm around him, leaning into it. They've been more tactile lately, but it's a real affection now, and he can't stop being enamored by it. Just like he can't look away from Rey and the way Jyn fiddles with the sleeping baby, but that's not a new addiction at all.
Cassian takes a step back with a sigh, knowing they do have things to do, knowing she's right that they'll stand there too long if they don't push themselves away. "We'll be back soon enough anyway."
"Don't say that," Jyn says with a huff, elbowing him lightly as they move away from the crib. Jyn directs them toward the living room, not bed. Things to do. "You'll jinx it, she'll wake up every two minutes now."
Probably not, Rey's settled back into her every few hours routine and Jyn wishes she would sleep through the night already, but she's still so small that Jyn can't begrudge her the food and the late night snuggles. She likes their quiet moments alone, she likes spying on Cassian's quiet moments with Rey. She likes their quiet moments together.
Cassian huffs out a silent laugh. He probably did just jinx it. Rey's been sleeping so much better now that her parents are back to something far more functional. "I'll take the first wake up then."
He doesn't fight Jyn guiding them out of the room, because he's not ready to sleep yet either, and maybe he likes the casual touching it necessitates. He brushes his hand idly over her back, scanning for his datapad. "Not a lot. I have some files to read, but unless Draven has sent more, it's not many. It'll be an easy night, I think."
"Wonderful, you can help me with the laundry then." Unwinding her arm from around his back, she steps back, but catches the hand that had been smoothing across her back, twisting their fingers together as she drags him toward the laundry room with a cheeky smile.
Look at how she just shoved him into doing chores with her. How sneaky.
He is apparently still content to be pushed around the house tonight, winding his fingers through hers as she drags him along. It is definitely not sneaky at all, but he doesn't mind. They don't have to be sneaky anymore, to want to spend time together.
It's just bizarre how he smiles about doing laundry. He does not point out it isn't really a two person job. He can read later. "I suppose did I notice the hamper getting full."
Rey does go through a lot of clothes but the hamper is not full, which would explain how he missed it. Jyn doesn't mention that, Jyn doesn't mention that she did their laundry earlier in the day and let Rey play in the empty basket and then the full basket of clean clothes.
She took video, she'll show him when she's ready to admit this is all a ruse.
"I do wonder how someone so small goes through so many clothes. I don't feel like I change her that often but then it just piles up. So many tiny little socks and tiny sweaters. Where do they all come from?" Do they really buy that many clothes?
"We buy them," he says, with a bit of a sigh. They get taken in by all the tiny clothes, not to mention she is very much a growing baby. Sometimes a shirt won't fit her in a month. Bodhi probably doesn't help either. It seems like he's always coming back with something new for Rey to wear.
"And if she spits up enough, sometimes she goes through at least two shirts a day." Their baby loves her goddamn spit bubbles. "Sometimes we do too."
"She doesn't need any more," Jyn decides firmly, no more clothes for the baby until she definitely outgrows what she has left. She's a baby, she doesn't need as many clothes as she has right now, it's ridiculous.
Pushing open the door to the laundry room, Jyn pulls Cassian inside.
At which point he will notice the empty basket of laundry, Rey's cloth diapers drying on the rack next to Jyn's delicate blouses. It smells like fresh laundry and detergent soap and Jyn smiles up at Cassian, chewing on her bottom lip.
"Probably not." Can they stick to it though?? Half the stuff they buy is so cute they just melt over it. She definitely does not need anymore anytime soon in reality, but the cute.
The laundry room, however, may need some more clothes. It doesn't take more than a quick glance to show him it's empty, that Jyn has already washed the clothes today. He raises an eyebrow at her, eyes dropping briefly to the way she chews on her lip. "Looks like you don't need my help."
It had always started with a fight, tension spilling over, but now there is no such anger, no fight on the horizon and Jyn finds herself struggling with how to broach this subject, especially now that she's gotten him alone, blessedly alone, with little to do.
"Maybe not with laundry, no, but I'm sure we could think of other things you could help me with." She pushes up on her tiptoes, bracing herself with the hand still gripping his, and kisses just under his jaw, a faint scrape of her teeth against his stubble.
That was her plan. He's startled by her lips on his skin, eyes closing briefly with the scrape of her teeth. He proposed for real, but the last time he'd really kissed her he was near loopy from exhaustion. There is nothing tired about him now. Its just that trying to get in her pants hasn't been remotely one of his goals since Rey was born.
"I think there are plenty of things I would like to help you with," he starts carefully, letting his free hand drop to her hip. "Most of them would not involve the laundry room."
There's a lilt of a question in it, with a side of teasing.
"The laundry room is on the other side of the house from our bedroom and has a door that locks." Not that they need to lock the door, but Jyn doesn't want to have sex with Rey in the room and the couch is too close, she's afraid Cassian would press pause if Rey so much as sniffled.
How does sex and parenting work???
She kisses his jaw again, tiptoeing forward until she's pressed up against him. After a second she breathes a laugh against his skin. "It's not like it's going to last very long." It's not like she is going to last very long.
"I don't think we have to worry about someone opening the door," he says lightly. He was going to suggest the couch if she didn't want the bed, but now that he thinks about it, it's not much better. What if any of the sound carries?? They should navigate this with Rey in the picture, but it's not like they really talked about it before either - and then she's kissing his jaw again and he sighs, tilting his neck towards her.
"We could try to make it last." It is not going to last. The both of them are wracked with tension. He shivers when she presses up into him, both hands now squeezing her waist and keeping her there. This is very clearly something Jyn wants, and he wants it too, but - "Are you sure?"
He says they could try and Jyn outright laughs against his throat, like okay. Sure, they could try. But it's not going to work. "We can try to make it work next time," she offers like a compromise, pressing her teeth against his neck, worrying a mark there before she presses a soft kiss to the same spot.
She looks up at him, eyes clear, arms circling around his neck, fingers playing idly through his hair. "I'm sure, Andor. I really would like to have incredibly short lived sex with you."
A beat, remembering the compromise. "I mean, I'd really like to try to have not incredibly short lived sex with you."
He half laughs too, albeit silently. They can pretend! One day. Next time. Next time, she says so herself. There's going to be so much time for them, isn't there? And they won't sleep together because they're angry, or because of hormones, just because they want to.
Cassian doesn't have a lot of time to really think on that though, not when her mouth keeps moving over his skin. He huffs out a sigh when she bites at him, smiling and feeling kind of ridiculous about how quickly he surrenders to it, to her.
"You can't blame me for checking." His fingers dip under the hem of her shirt, sliding up and exposing a sliver of her waist to the cool air. "I would really like to have incredibly short lived despite trying otherwise sex with you too. Even if it's in the laundry room."
"Good," Jyn declares, satisfied with their agreement, smiling happily up at Cassian while trying not to squirm under the touch of his fingers. It's never been particularly violent, but neither was it slow and gentle before. It was rough and impassioned and usually angry, but that was how Jyn liked it.
This is already different and she already likes it, but also she realizes she doesn't know... what he likes?
"I... What do you like? How would you like to do this?" The second question sounds far more confident, if not touched with self-deprecating humor like she can't believe that is how she phrased it.
They're smiling. He feels happy, which is a lot better than being angry. Not that it was bad before, it was still very much enjoyable, but it's a whole new sense of wonder now.
"I was about to ask you the same." He drums his fingertips against her. They have a child, but it's such a strange area to navigate. Also related to the whole having a child thing, he doesn't want to do anything that makes her uncomfortable in relation to postpartum healing.
"I would like to just kiss you, to start." He sounds weirdly nervous, even though he basically wants to drown her in affection. Even though he's already kissed her too many times to count. "I don't like... giving up control." She probably already knew that much, but it still makes him anxious to say so aloud. "I like your hands."
His thumbs smooth over her skin. "What do you want? I don't want to cross any lines, or hurt you."
They were very rough before! Rough led to Rey! Rey led to Jyn's body going through childbirth!
"You won't hurt me." What a stubborn, half impatient assurance, as if Jyn finds it absurd. Rey's closer the six months than newborn, her body has had plenty of time to heal from a fairly easy, if long, childbirth.
Honestly, he probably won't cross any lines either, because neither of them is going to last long enough to find a line to cross and she is fairly certain Cassian isn't into anything very out there.
"I want." Her hands leave his neck to put one on each cheek. For a second, because she's a fucking child, she smooshes his cheeks so he makes a fish face. But only for a second. "You. Some part of you. Inside of me. In the next minute."
She is??? The cutest?? He kind of falters for a second because she squishes his face and it's adorable, all the while talking about his being inside her, and it's a lot to deal with all at once! He loves her, it's ridiculous.
Cassian laughs, tilting his cheek just enough to kiss her palm. "I can use my hands for the immediate, but it might take more than a minute if you want anything else."
He kisses her palm again, then slides his lips down her skin in a quick flutter of pecks to her wrist. "And I'm still going to kiss you first."
Jyn's mouth turns down in an exaggerated pout, letting her free hand fall to his waist. She gives a sharp tug, pushing her flush against him. "It's really going to take you more than a minute?"
Her hand circles his waist, fingers tip tapping across his spine before her hand descends, palming his ass. Cheeky.
That pout. It shouldn't make him smile, and yet! "Not all of us came into this room with intentions."
He did say he likes her hands. He also likes the way she presses in, nearly shuddering already and wow it really is not going to take long is it? He laughs again too and thinks he could get used to laughing with Jyn during sex being the new normal.
"It might help if I took your shirt off." You know, whatever, no big deal, even if the corners of his mouth tilt up in a grin. His mouth moves back up from her wrist, kissing her fingers.
"Maybe we can skip that." Alright maybe her body hasn't snapped back completely, soft and heavy and round where she used to be taut and flat, body still made for feeding their daughter. Her shirt doesn't need to come off for sex anyway. That's just wasting time and her minute is tick tick ticking away, that is how she is going to frame it.
"It'll definitely help if you take your pants off though, those are completely unnecessary." Who needs pants? No one in this house.
He freezes for a second, looking at her face and trying to get a good read on her. He would never ever push it after she turned him down, but something about the way she says it shifts some of his attention to concern. "Of course, Jyn." He kisses her palm again.
"But if we're trying to help me along here, we should definitely start with your pants." He doesn't move to take them off yet, but he does duck down to kiss her gently. It is maybe a little question, because his Jyn is uncomfortable senses are tingling.
It's a change from before, even, when her shirt was the first thing to go because it was easy to yank off and she's always liked the feel of his hands smoothing down the bare skin of her back before one of them shoved the other against the wall or the floor or, usually, the couch.
She smiles into the kiss, happy he has (seemingly) let it go, and after a moment steps back, spreading her hands to the side like go for it. It's a clear invitation, she's not going to fight him getting her pants off. She'd just said she wanted him inside her, getting rid of her pants is step one.
"That's gonna do the trick for you, getting me out of my knickers and you'll be ready to go?" Her eyebrows lift, teasing, there has to be more to it. "Go on then."
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Her arm loops around his waist, other hand reaching to adjust Rey's little nightshirt, tugging it down over her belly, stretching to run her finger down their baby's tiny little nose before she draws her hand back, laughing at the way Rey seems to turn to try and chase Jyn's hand.
"Quickly, before we never leave." They could probably stand there all night, being mildly obsessed, but they have laundry to do and data files to send out, all sorts of things that need to be done. They can't just stare at Rey all night, it's creepy, they're creepy.
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He likes the warm weight of Jyn's arm around him, leaning into it. They've been more tactile lately, but it's a real affection now, and he can't stop being enamored by it. Just like he can't look away from Rey and the way Jyn fiddles with the sleeping baby, but that's not a new addiction at all.
Cassian takes a step back with a sigh, knowing they do have things to do, knowing she's right that they'll stand there too long if they don't push themselves away. "We'll be back soon enough anyway."
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Probably not, Rey's settled back into her every few hours routine and Jyn wishes she would sleep through the night already, but she's still so small that Jyn can't begrudge her the food and the late night snuggles. She likes their quiet moments alone, she likes spying on Cassian's quiet moments with Rey. She likes their quiet moments together.
But a full night's sleep, also...
"Do you have much to do tonight?"
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He doesn't fight Jyn guiding them out of the room, because he's not ready to sleep yet either, and maybe he likes the casual touching it necessitates. He brushes his hand idly over her back, scanning for his datapad. "Not a lot. I have some files to read, but unless Draven has sent more, it's not many. It'll be an easy night, I think."
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Look at how she just shoved him into doing chores with her. How sneaky.
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It's just bizarre how he smiles about doing laundry. He does not point out it isn't really a two person job. He can read later. "I suppose did I notice the hamper getting full."
Rey goes through a lot of clothes.
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She took video, she'll show him when she's ready to admit this is all a ruse.
"I do wonder how someone so small goes through so many clothes. I don't feel like I change her that often but then it just piles up. So many tiny little socks and tiny sweaters. Where do they all come from?" Do they really buy that many clothes?
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"And if she spits up enough, sometimes she goes through at least two shirts a day." Their baby loves her goddamn spit bubbles. "Sometimes we do too."
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Pushing open the door to the laundry room, Jyn pulls Cassian inside.
At which point he will notice the empty basket of laundry, Rey's cloth diapers drying on the rack next to Jyn's delicate blouses. It smells like fresh laundry and detergent soap and Jyn smiles up at Cassian, chewing on her bottom lip.
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The laundry room, however, may need some more clothes. It doesn't take more than a quick glance to show him it's empty, that Jyn has already washed the clothes today. He raises an eyebrow at her, eyes dropping briefly to the way she chews on her lip. "Looks like you don't need my help."
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"Maybe not with laundry, no, but I'm sure we could think of other things you could help me with." She pushes up on her tiptoes, bracing herself with the hand still gripping his, and kisses just under his jaw, a faint scrape of her teeth against his stubble.
"If you'd like."
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That was her plan. He's startled by her lips on his skin, eyes closing briefly with the scrape of her teeth. He proposed for real, but the last time he'd really kissed her he was near loopy from exhaustion. There is nothing tired about him now. Its just that trying to get in her pants hasn't been remotely one of his goals since Rey was born.
"I think there are plenty of things I would like to help you with," he starts carefully, letting his free hand drop to her hip. "Most of them would not involve the laundry room."
There's a lilt of a question in it, with a side of teasing.
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How does sex and parenting work???
She kisses his jaw again, tiptoeing forward until she's pressed up against him. After a second she breathes a laugh against his skin. "It's not like it's going to last very long." It's not like she is going to last very long.
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"We could try to make it last." It is not going to last. The both of them are wracked with tension. He shivers when she presses up into him, both hands now squeezing her waist and keeping her there. This is very clearly something Jyn wants, and he wants it too, but - "Are you sure?"
Just in case.
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She looks up at him, eyes clear, arms circling around his neck, fingers playing idly through his hair. "I'm sure, Andor. I really would like to have incredibly short lived sex with you."
A beat, remembering the compromise. "I mean, I'd really like to try to have not incredibly short lived sex with you."
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Cassian doesn't have a lot of time to really think on that though, not when her mouth keeps moving over his skin. He huffs out a sigh when she bites at him, smiling and feeling kind of ridiculous about how quickly he surrenders to it, to her.
"You can't blame me for checking." His fingers dip under the hem of her shirt, sliding up and exposing a sliver of her waist to the cool air. "I would really like to have incredibly short lived despite trying otherwise sex with you too. Even if it's in the laundry room."
He can get creative!
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This is already different and she already likes it, but also she realizes she doesn't know... what he likes?
"I... What do you like? How would you like to do this?" The second question sounds far more confident, if not touched with self-deprecating humor like she can't believe that is how she phrased it.
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"I was about to ask you the same." He drums his fingertips against her. They have a child, but it's such a strange area to navigate. Also related to the whole having a child thing, he doesn't want to do anything that makes her uncomfortable in relation to postpartum healing.
"I would like to just kiss you, to start." He sounds weirdly nervous, even though he basically wants to drown her in affection. Even though he's already kissed her too many times to count. "I don't like... giving up control." She probably already knew that much, but it still makes him anxious to say so aloud. "I like your hands."
His thumbs smooth over her skin. "What do you want? I don't want to cross any lines, or hurt you."
They were very rough before! Rough led to Rey! Rey led to Jyn's body going through childbirth!
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Honestly, he probably won't cross any lines either, because neither of them is going to last long enough to find a line to cross and she is fairly certain Cassian isn't into anything very out there.
"I want." Her hands leave his neck to put one on each cheek. For a second, because she's a fucking child, she smooshes his cheeks so he makes a fish face. But only for a second. "You. Some part of you. Inside of me. In the next minute."
Everything else is extra.
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Cassian laughs, tilting his cheek just enough to kiss her palm. "I can use my hands for the immediate, but it might take more than a minute if you want anything else."
He kisses her palm again, then slides his lips down her skin in a quick flutter of pecks to her wrist. "And I'm still going to kiss you first."
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Her hand circles his waist, fingers tip tapping across his spine before her hand descends, palming his ass. Cheeky.
"Bet we could speed that up."
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He did say he likes her hands. He also likes the way she presses in, nearly shuddering already and wow it really is not going to take long is it? He laughs again too and thinks he could get used to laughing with Jyn during sex being the new normal.
"It might help if I took your shirt off." You know, whatever, no big deal, even if the corners of his mouth tilt up in a grin. His mouth moves back up from her wrist, kissing her fingers.
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"It'll definitely help if you take your pants off though, those are completely unnecessary." Who needs pants? No one in this house.
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"But if we're trying to help me along here, we should definitely start with your pants." He doesn't move to take them off yet, but he does duck down to kiss her gently. It is maybe a little question, because his Jyn is uncomfortable senses are tingling.
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She smiles into the kiss, happy he has (seemingly) let it go, and after a moment steps back, spreading her hands to the side like go for it. It's a clear invitation, she's not going to fight him getting her pants off. She'd just said she wanted him inside her, getting rid of her pants is step one.
"That's gonna do the trick for you, getting me out of my knickers and you'll be ready to go?" Her eyebrows lift, teasing, there has to be more to it. "Go on then."
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