Cassian abruptly kisses her cheek with a wide smile, then steals a glance at Lissi while his face is still very close to Jyn's, close enough that her hair tickles his ear. "She secretly likes it."
She probably hates it, and he feels terrible. He gives her more space and tilts out of her bubble, even though he's keeping the promise to hold her hand. It's mild, he knows, compared to other affection he might need show her tonight, but she's already vaguely uncomfortable. It's not like they haven't done this before, but there's something tiny and different between them now.
Analysis later, spying now.
"You will have to introduce me to your wife later, assuming she lets the poor scientist go sometime this evening."
Oh no, she feels the loss of warmth immediately and it's not like he's even gone far, he's still holding her hand, warm and sure, but...
Lissi doesn't seem to notice, expression having melted at Cassian's affection toward Jyn. She's clearly in love with love and a laugh bubbles past her lips at Cassian's comment. "I should rescue him, you're right. We're seated near each other so I'll see you at dinner." She offers a bright smile and leans forward to hug Jyn quickly before skipping away.
Immediately, Jyn tugs on Cassian's hand, pulling him to a secluded corner.
"I'm fine," she spits out quietly, like she's cutting off the question at the pass, squeezing his hand automatically before puffing out a sigh. "I forgot what this was all like. I just need a minute."
He doesn't fight it when Jyn tugs him into the corner, recognizing immediately her need to have a moment. It probably doesn't help, but he steps into her space, settling a hand at her waist, the one not squeezing her hand back. Everything about it is casually and quietly affectionate from a distance, should anyone do more than glance over.
"It gets easier," he says matter-of-factly. She's not very fine, but she's right; she just needs time. Despite her nerves, Cassian would have pulled out of the mission by now if he didn't believe Jyn capable. If they spend a couple minutes talking quietly in the corner, no one is going to think it odd if he plays it the right way.
"I know you'll be fine. We'll get some food in a bit, how does that sound?"
It shouldn't help, and yet Jyn relaxes under his touch, watching the steady rise and fall of his chest until her own breathing turns less erratic. They're not alone, but the affection is easier, less scary when it's just the two of them.
Eventually she looks up, mouth slanted down sheepishly, gaze lingering briefly on his own mouth before her eyes drift further upward to his eyes.
"Food always sounds good." She's got weaknesses and apparently Cassian is willing to exploit them. She'd still rather be home sleeping or watching a movie curled up on the couch, her legs draped over his lap. Instead she shifts in her high heels, leaning into his touch automatically. Her nose crinkles up a little, chewing on her lip. "I need you to kiss me now before you have to do it later."
Some of the tension in her deflates, and it puzzles him because he's the only variable that changed the situation. Maybe it's the seclusion, the way it seems to cut off everyone else.
For two seconds, it seems like she's staring at his mouth before she meets his eyes. He blinks, shaking it off.
His hand leaves her waist so he can cradle her cheek. "I'm sorry if it ends up being more often than usual tonight," he says, genuinely apologetic, but then he does kiss her. His mouth slants on hers, and even though he lingers for a long few moments, it's very chaste despite the show of it. True to his word, he's still holding her hand.
Sometimes Jyn wonders why he can't see it, how she feels about him, but then she remembers that this is his job. It's his job to look like he loves her and she was too naive and stupid to not take the bait. She'd spent her entire life trying to erase her feelings but she didn't succeed well enough and now here she is:
At a party with her pretend husband having to pretend she isn't in love with him while pretending she is in love with him.
"It's fine," she assures him dismissively when they part. They have to do what they have to do. "So long as you don't eat anything disgusting. Or extra spicy. Besides, I just gave you the most perfect baby in the galaxy, it's only natural you fawn over me. I grew an entire human being. I'm incredible."
Even after they part, he keeps his hand on her face. For the show, obviously, not because he likes how warm she feels under his fingers. Fawning over her is part of the act, but it's not hard. She did give him the most perfect baby, and he likes her. He wants her to feel special and incredible and he wants some of his affection to be genuine, because she doesn't deserve fake appreciation.
He knows she's being facetious about it, that she probably doesn't believe it, but he does. Without a doubt. "You are incredible." He kisses her quickly again, then kisses her forehead gently. The second part at least he knows is real. "And Rey is perfect. I promise not to eat anything you hate."
Her expression softens reflexively. Rey is the most perfect thing in the entire galaxy. Slowly, she reaches up to curl her fingers around the hand on her cheek, twisting their fingers together as she tugs it down. She puffs out a breath of a sigh, steeling herself.
"Alright." She nods decisively. "Let's do this."
Hand in hand, they enter the breach, smiling and laughing like new parents on their first night out on the town -- which isn't as hard once Jyn relaxes a little. It's nice having Cassian around to take care of the talking when she's grown bored and annoyed and it's easy to mask the way they slip away so she can download Imperial information as just two people taking advantage of their privacy.
Jyn's giggle and blush sells it completely.
It's a job well done and even if Jyn feels a little hollow after it, at least she knows that regardless of anything -- she and Cassian are the best possible partnership.
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She probably hates it, and he feels terrible. He gives her more space and tilts out of her bubble, even though he's keeping the promise to hold her hand. It's mild, he knows, compared to other affection he might need show her tonight, but she's already vaguely uncomfortable. It's not like they haven't done this before, but there's something tiny and different between them now.
Analysis later, spying now.
"You will have to introduce me to your wife later, assuming she lets the poor scientist go sometime this evening."
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Lissi doesn't seem to notice, expression having melted at Cassian's affection toward Jyn. She's clearly in love with love and a laugh bubbles past her lips at Cassian's comment. "I should rescue him, you're right. We're seated near each other so I'll see you at dinner." She offers a bright smile and leans forward to hug Jyn quickly before skipping away.
Immediately, Jyn tugs on Cassian's hand, pulling him to a secluded corner.
"I'm fine," she spits out quietly, like she's cutting off the question at the pass, squeezing his hand automatically before puffing out a sigh. "I forgot what this was all like. I just need a minute."
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"It gets easier," he says matter-of-factly. She's not very fine, but she's right; she just needs time. Despite her nerves, Cassian would have pulled out of the mission by now if he didn't believe Jyn capable. If they spend a couple minutes talking quietly in the corner, no one is going to think it odd if he plays it the right way.
"I know you'll be fine. We'll get some food in a bit, how does that sound?"
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Eventually she looks up, mouth slanted down sheepishly, gaze lingering briefly on his own mouth before her eyes drift further upward to his eyes.
"Food always sounds good." She's got weaknesses and apparently Cassian is willing to exploit them. She'd still rather be home sleeping or watching a movie curled up on the couch, her legs draped over his lap. Instead she shifts in her high heels, leaning into his touch automatically. Her nose crinkles up a little, chewing on her lip. "I need you to kiss me now before you have to do it later."
She needs to get used to the audience again.
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For two seconds, it seems like she's staring at his mouth before she meets his eyes. He blinks, shaking it off.
His hand leaves her waist so he can cradle her cheek. "I'm sorry if it ends up being more often than usual tonight," he says, genuinely apologetic, but then he does kiss her. His mouth slants on hers, and even though he lingers for a long few moments, it's very chaste despite the show of it. True to his word, he's still holding her hand.
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At a party with her pretend husband having to pretend she isn't in love with him while pretending she is in love with him.
"It's fine," she assures him dismissively when they part. They have to do what they have to do. "So long as you don't eat anything disgusting. Or extra spicy. Besides, I just gave you the most perfect baby in the galaxy, it's only natural you fawn over me. I grew an entire human being. I'm incredible."
Almost sounds like she believes it, too.
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He knows she's being facetious about it, that she probably doesn't believe it, but he does. Without a doubt. "You are incredible." He kisses her quickly again, then kisses her forehead gently. The second part at least he knows is real. "And Rey is perfect. I promise not to eat anything you hate."
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"Alright." She nods decisively. "Let's do this."
Hand in hand, they enter the breach, smiling and laughing like new parents on their first night out on the town -- which isn't as hard once Jyn relaxes a little. It's nice having Cassian around to take care of the talking when she's grown bored and annoyed and it's easy to mask the way they slip away so she can download Imperial information as just two people taking advantage of their privacy.
Jyn's giggle and blush sells it completely.
It's a job well done and even if Jyn feels a little hollow after it, at least she knows that regardless of anything -- she and Cassian are the best possible partnership.
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