Jyn almost lets him go, she almost has some dignity and lets him move on, but she can't. Saw had taught her to fight for the rebellion, to take every chance that came because it might be the last chance, the only chance. He'd left her and she'd let it seep into her, letting it poison her hope until she'd left Cassian all the same.
It's different now. She's different now. Saw had stood his ground until the very last, her father had lied to spare her from growing up as a pawn, damn if she is going to let every sacrifice they made be for nothing.
Her hand snaps out to curl around his wrist, tighter and colder than any shackles she had in prison and she's always had a freakishly strong grip, especially for a girl. She doesn't care about anyone listening, they'd been there when the two of them were making out, fighting would probably be easier to block out, honestly. Maybe it's another case where K2 is a better friend than her because he lets it go when Cassian asks, but Jyn can't. This could be her only chance.
"You. I want you, Cassian." Her voice cracks and it's the only thing betraying how nervous she is, straightening up, shoulders back, ignoring any and all weaknesses. "I want a second chance, I want to be able to make up for hurting you and to spend every day proving to you that the scared, idiot girl who ran away from you isn't who I am anymore. I want to be happy again and I am with you, I always have been. I know I ruined us, I know I hurt you because I was selfish and self-centered." Her hand abruptly releases his wrist, stepping back. "I don't deserve your trust or your faith, but even when you give my necklace back, I'm not leaving unless you tell me to. I'm not going anywhere, not anymore. I know it's just words, but I'm going to prove it, every single day."
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It's different now. She's different now. Saw had stood his ground until the very last, her father had lied to spare her from growing up as a pawn, damn if she is going to let every sacrifice they made be for nothing.
Her hand snaps out to curl around his wrist, tighter and colder than any shackles she had in prison and she's always had a freakishly strong grip, especially for a girl. She doesn't care about anyone listening, they'd been there when the two of them were making out, fighting would probably be easier to block out, honestly. Maybe it's another case where K2 is a better friend than her because he lets it go when Cassian asks, but Jyn can't. This could be her only chance.
"You. I want you, Cassian." Her voice cracks and it's the only thing betraying how nervous she is, straightening up, shoulders back, ignoring any and all weaknesses. "I want a second chance, I want to be able to make up for hurting you and to spend every day proving to you that the scared, idiot girl who ran away from you isn't who I am anymore. I want to be happy again and I am with you, I always have been. I know I ruined us, I know I hurt you because I was selfish and self-centered." Her hand abruptly releases his wrist, stepping back. "I don't deserve your trust or your faith, but even when you give my necklace back, I'm not leaving unless you tell me to. I'm not going anywhere, not anymore. I know it's just words, but I'm going to prove it, every single day."