was that semi-colon some kind of flirty wink or just bad punctuation?

[realists]

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[realists]

Javier is a smart man.

I like it when you say fancy because it's adorable

[evasives]

Don't let him hear you say that.

It's your influence.

[realists]

I would never.

My adorable influence.

Can you flirt with me again? For a second I didn't miss you.

[evasives]

Your adorable everything.

[realists]

Expand, please.

[evasives]

Your cheeks puff out adorably when you shove too much food in your mouth.

The look on your face when you sing Abba.

Your laugh.

The tiger thing.

[realists]

[ okay bad move because now she's blushing and trying to convince the blankets to swallow her whole, pushing the pillow over her face like he can see her. as such it takes a few minutes to answer. ]

Definitely don't miss you now.

[ EXCEPT SHE DO ]

[evasives]

[he wonders if he has?? said too much?? when she goes quiet for a few minutes. but then again, he did literally fall asleep on her.]

Lucky. It just made me miss you more.

[realists]

Curse you, Pangaea.

[ it has to get easier, hasn't it? being apart. it's been a day and she's so disheartened by his absence, even if she hadn't known him very long. surely it will get easier, being long distance friends.

friends who flirt and kissed and had sex but maybe it was just solace. it had been a rough loss, maybe... her mood goes from light and flirt to foul in seconds and even she is shocked by how quickly the rubbish mood sets in. ]

[evasives]

[he doesn't know how! or why! but something makes him worry after her all of a sudden?? does he have a magical jyn sense that the ocean cannot buffer?? is it the lack of emoji or the way her reply sounds so flat??]

[it's already difficult being apart, and they haven't really addressed it beyond in passing yet.]

A return to pangaea would be very convenient.

Is everything okay?

[realists]

[ GIRD YOUR LOINS, jyn is going to talk about emotions without being prompted.

sort of. ]

After the last match. That was because you sort of like me, right? Not just because you were sad and horny for Amir's beard.

[ gotta keep it light!! gotta make it about the beard!! ]

[evasives]

[oH NO HIS INSTINCTS WERE CORRECT. and he immediately panics a little because sure they have been talking very amicably but! what if he has somehow!! given her the wrong impression!! he 100000% doesn't want her to think he used her to make himself feel better after losing.]

It was because I like you, no "sort of." Being with you made me happy. I was sad for a few reasons of course, but I didn't...

I did not sleep with you to stave that off. I wanted you and I wanted to, and that was it. I would have wanted to even if I was not going home.

I am sorry if I did something to make you think otherwise.

[realists]

You didn't.

[ it's just every man in her life has left her, at some point, even if they came back like bodhi and her father, so she has no sense of security when it comes to men. ]

Is all that want in past tense because it happened in the past or because the feeling expired?

[evasives]

Because it happened in the past. I was only talking about that particular evening.

I still want you now.

[realists]

Okay.

Good.

[evasives]

It's mutual, right?

Because I know the ocean exists, but I still want you and want to date you. I assumed you felt... similar.

[realists]

You want to date me?

[ five seconds later ]

It is mutual, yes! I like you and I want you. But how can we date from 9k km apart?

[evasives]

I do. I think I have wanted to since I first kissed you.

I don't know how. But maybe we could... try and figure it out? People do date long distance all the time.

[admittedly, they're usually at least in the same continent. that's gonna be a challenge.]

[realists]

We barely know each other.

[ gasp jyn you can get to know each other ]

What if you change your mind because it turns out I'm rubbish and sometimes I don't get out of bed for a solid day or forget to eat or snap at you and you realize this was a really amazing couple of weeks but that's not what it's normally like and then you stop texting me back and that's how it ends, you ghosting me because we're 9000 km apart so it's not like we can see each other easily.

[ exhibit: jyn self sabotaging. ]

[evasives]

[oh no.]

[what if she doesn't really want to date? what if they don't actually know each other as much as he thought? what if he was projecting???? now his stomach is in worried knots.]

I thought... we knew enough to at least be friends. There is plenty of time to learn more. Plenty of time to keep... talking and getting to know each other more.

It is hard to figure out how to begin if you are... already mapping out at end. No one said it had to be perfect or that it would would good all the time. There is always good and bad, I was not expecting otherwise.

If you don't want to do this, I would hope you just let me know. I would not ghost you if my feelings changed, I would tell you.

[realists]

I do.

But I'm scared.

It's all so fast and I don't want you to wake up one morning disappointed that you picked me.

[evasives]

I am scared too.

But you make me want to try. I can be myself with you. Whatever happens down the line, I would not regret taking the chance and picking you now.

[realists]

Okay.

I want to try.

[evasives]

Me too.

I know it is not a normal situation, but it is not like we were normal to begin with either.

[realists]

I think I'm having a bad day.