She deserves so much more than this. Rey does too, obviously, but Jyn deserves a real family and a real love and he swallows back the way the guilt squeezes at his chest. She deserves more than a liar and a murderer to be the father of her child but she's stuck with him now, and he hates himself for it.

"I never expected to have a family. The Rebellion - it's all I had for years. I was never treated unkindly, but it was never the same as my parents."

His next sip is a longer swig, three large gulps to the dead parents club. They're both going to need another sooner rather than later at this rate. "Rey is my family too, and I'm not ever going to give that up."

Even if he spent the entirety of the time till she was born second guessing everything.