Damn it. She's on her feet again, shaking with tension and yelling and she shouldn't be because he's right, she left. She has no right to be upset or defend herself but he's always known how to push her buttons without even trying and it's a fight she's had already in her head, but she was always on Cassian's side.
Being the one left behind broke her heart before she even knew what heartbreak felt like, the fact that she'd done the same thing to Cassian is just cruel but she won't take it back.
"You had potential to be something amazing, Cassian. And you are. Youngest captain in Alliance history. Do you know how many people told me that? Melshi told me and he was spitting blood. If I had stayed you would have spent your entire career making sure I didn't get into trouble or some rebel didn't say something about me because I was with Saw and my father's a traitor and you would have given up any chance of moving up and I know you wanted that. I left because one day you'd have to choose between me and the rebellion and I didn't want you to have to make that choice so I made it for you. And I'm not sorry because you're brilliant, Cassian, and you've always deserved more than me."
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Damn it. She's on her feet again, shaking with tension and yelling and she shouldn't be because he's right, she left. She has no right to be upset or defend herself but he's always known how to push her buttons without even trying and it's a fight she's had already in her head, but she was always on Cassian's side.
Being the one left behind broke her heart before she even knew what heartbreak felt like, the fact that she'd done the same thing to Cassian is just cruel but she won't take it back.
"You had potential to be something amazing, Cassian. And you are. Youngest captain in Alliance history. Do you know how many people told me that? Melshi told me and he was spitting blood. If I had stayed you would have spent your entire career making sure I didn't get into trouble or some rebel didn't say something about me because I was with Saw and my father's a traitor and you would have given up any chance of moving up and I know you wanted that. I left because one day you'd have to choose between me and the rebellion and I didn't want you to have to make that choice so I made it for you. And I'm not sorry because you're brilliant, Cassian, and you've always deserved more than me."