He is hyperaware of the way she stiffens and automatically assumes it's his fault, even if there's no visible sign. But he's also hyperaware of how she relaxes soon after. Cassian is always vigilant, but it always feels extra when he comes back from missions like these.

He misses her arms as soon as she starts to let him go and vaguely registers her plea to get in bed. "I don't want to talk," is the automatic and monotonous reply, because classified, because he's never needed to, because he doesn't want to make Jyn leave or disgust her like he disgusts himself.

But he gets to his feet unsteadily, refusing to use her for support to stand, which is at the very least a sign he's going to get in bed. Maybe. He stares at it again instead of crawling in, frowning deeply.